Apocripha/0 Fanbox: Happiness Cage, "Call My Name"
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Call My Name (Jade and Sapphirus Story)
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Jade was hunting an angel, and wounded it to the point of death. He then 
asks Sapphirus to finish the angel off, but Sapphirus does not want to kill 
it. He believes that angels are special, sacred creatures, and it's against 
his beliefs to take its life. Jade tells him that once they return to Heaven, 
it will be a secret, and to just picture the angel as his most hated person 
in the world. Sapphirus then kills the angel, but still feels bad as it is 
the first time he has ever killed something. Jade tells him that once he gets 
used to killing he will be good at it, and he did well for his first time. 
Sapphirus is actually a bit happy at this comment, even though he should be 
feeling disgusted or regretful. 

Sapphirus feels that Jade is his only partner in the dark, sinister Abyss, 
and he does not want Jade to dislike him or to abandon him. He wants Jade to 
like him. Even when they have disagreements/fights, Sapphirus still wants to 
be liked by Jade and wants to hear Jade's words of praise again. Then he thinks 
that he was just being an idiot and silly, he just wanted to hear what he wanted 
to hear, and really he justed wanted to fulfill his own wants and desires. 

~*~

Sapphirus falls asleep and has a dream his girlfriend back in Heaven. He 
thinks that the reason he didn't go crazy is because he was thinking of her 
deeply while he was falling. Yet, now he can't even recall her appearance, 
though he can remember their conversations. She asks him whether he thinks 
it's strange that angels could not love someone more than God and that their 
meeting is only to reproduce. Sapphirus isn't concerned with such issues, and 
tells her that he believes in God's decision and that they would be happy 
together because it was fate, and that she is the person that he loves, though 
only second place in his heart, because God is of course first. She asks him 
whether he truly believes what he has just said, as she doesn't believe in 
his beliefs. Sapphirus then asks her to fall in love with him, and said that 
he didn't mind being second place in her heart. 

She replies that everyone is weird and wonders why no one thinks it is strange, 
and then she starts to blame herself, saying that she is crazy, it's her 
fault, etc. She complains that she hates being second place, she wants to be 
someone's favorite. Sapphirus says that he loves her again, but in return she 
replies that she is not his favorite. Realizing what she said, she asks 
Sapphirus not to tell anyone else her words, especially the arch-angels. He 
tells her that he won't say anything because he loves her. She keeps denying 
her words, saying what she said wasn't her real thoughts, as she is terrified 
of being thrown to the Abyss. Sapphirus again confirms that he won't say anything 
because they are destined to be together. She then covers his right eye with his 
hair because she can't stand Sapphirus looking at her with both eyes (and Sapphirus 
continues to wear his hair over his right eye since because of this). She then 
questions why she had to be born in Heaven. 

Sapphirus is kind of half-awake, half-asleep, and Jade comes in to wake him up. 
Sapphirus won't get up, so then Jade hits him to wake him up. He tells him to get 
ready for work, as both are now working as angel hunters. Sapphi tells Jade that 
he needs to get changed and kicks Jade out of his room, and after some teasing, 
Jade leaves him. 

Sapphirus thinks about Jade, that he has an attractive smile and that makes 
Jade popular with girls. However, he only smiles to the people that he hates. 
The more he hates them, the more he smiles. The leader of their band of 
angel hunters is a girl who likes Jade, and Jade is a good worker and polite 
in front of her, but is spreading rumors about her behind her back. Sapphirus, 
who is also popular with the girls, thinks that the women in Hell are weak, 
and feels sorry for them. Jade often switches partners often, sometimes two 
girls in a day, and Sapphirus used to tell him off, but gave up because for 
one he felt Jade hasn't really done anything terribly wrong, and that the 
women are just plain stupid. He feels that Jade is using the weakness of 
those women. Sapphirus doesn't hold the opinion that Jade is bad because of 
his actions, even though he can't fully accept that yet. Jade also often 
teases him whenever Sapphirus tries to lecture him about his actions, so 
Sapphirus finally just gave up on telling him off. 

Sapphirus thinks about how he has been with Jade for a long time now, and 
recently the conversations with Jade have had a bad aura around them, getting 
close to arguments. He mumbles to himself that Jade wouldn't possibly like 
him. He thinks Jade hates him. Sapphirus thinks that Jade is good in everything, 
as well as confident, while he sees himself as being completely useless. 
Sapphirus thinks that the reason why Jade is always angry and ungrateful is 
because his standards do not satisfy Jade's requirements. Sapphirus thinks that 
it's not his fault that he is not as good as Jade, because it's too hard to be 
equal to him. The gem on Jade's forehead is only given to angels who are very 
talented, and Sapphirus thinks that he is only normal, whereas Jade is special 
because he was given this gem.He works hard to reach Jade's expected standard 
from him, but he feels he just can't be what Jade wants. 

Sapphirus thinks they have a bad relationship and Jade is always ungrateful, 
but that cannot be helped because he was not given the chance to choose a 
partner. They are stuck together because they are the same, and he feels during 
their time together, that distance has not become closer, but further apart. He 
is tired of working so hard and mumbles that he does not want to work with Jade. 
But they receive their jobs because people are satisfied with them working 
together as a team, as they do a good job. They would tell others that they are 
childhood friends and that they do everything together, and before they used to 
even share a room together (though now they live in separate rooms), and it helped 
cover up their identities furthermore.

~*~

Outside, Jade complains about how long it is taking Sapphirus to change. 
Sapphirus finally meets Jade in the corridor, and Jade teases him, saying 
that he must have been dreaming about women. Sapphirus denies it but then 
Jade lies to him and says that he went into his room and he heard him 
sleep-talking. Then Sapphirus gets a bit mad and asks him when he came in, 
which confirms to Jade that Sapphirus was indeed dreaming about a woman. He 
continues to tease Sapphirus for a bit, and Sapphirus thinks to himself 
that Jade is horrible because he keeps reminding him of memories he doesn't 
want to recall, or saying things that he doesn't want to hear. 

After this, Sapphirus changes the subject by complaining about how he doesn't 
like his job. He says that he could be a cook or something, instead of killing 
angels. Jade calls him an idiot and says that this is a simple way to earn a 
living, and mentions that they could be kicked out if others have suspecions 
of their identities. Sapphirus again says that he wants their lifestyle in 
Naraku to end, but Jade says that this will continue until "the end," and says 
that Sapphirus being annoying. They head off to work.

~*~

Sapphirus thinks about how they live by slaughtering angels and demons over 
and over again. The hold swords and kill, use magic to harm others, and 
continually lie. They didn't do these things back in Heaven, and this makes 
it hard for Sapphirus to understand. But he's starting to get used to these 
things and he thinks it's scary: he's used to the smell of blood, the texture 
of bones and flesh, and the piercing screams of their victims. 

Jade and Sapphirus now arrive in a forest, and Sapphirus mumbles to himself 
that it will be easy to kill since he's used to it, and then says that what 
he just said sounded like Jade, and Jade denies this, and then Sapphirus 
refutes him, and they argue about it. Jade finally stops the argument because 
they are just wasting time. 

Jade tells Sapphirus that he thinks Sapphirus starting to get useful recently 
in battles, and Sapphirus asks whethere that's a compliment. Jade calls 
Sapphirus an idiot and that he is turning into a monkey. Then under his breath 
Jade says very quietly that Sapphirus doesn't understand his feelings. Sapphirus 
didn't hear this and says "Eh?" but Jade doesn't answer him. 

Sapphirus thinks back to the battle; he likes using magic better than using a 
sword, because he doesn't like to feel the sensation of the sword cutting into 
flesh. As for Jade, he can use anything, but he is better with magic, and prefers 
it as well... because he doesn't like to get his clothes dirty. Sapphirus just 
can't be like Jade who can kill so easily. However, Sapphirus then thinks that 
the nights in which he can sleep peacefully have increased, although he is alone 
in his room. 

~*~

Back in town, the female leader of their bounty-hunting group announces 
that Team 5 (Sapphirus and Jade's team) has done the best, and gives them 
the reward money, as she subtlely flirts with Jade. 

Sapphirus is happy that they have done well, however Jade tells him ruthlessly 
that he didn't contribute much. Sapphirus denies this, and Jade says, "Oh well, 
it's acceptable." Sapphirus says that he will work harder in the future, and 
Jade says that he has to work /a lot/ harder. He then gives Sapphirus half of 
the money. 

Sapphirus tells Jade that he shouldn't speak impolitely and playfully with 
the female captain, and Jade asks whether Sapphirus is jealous. Sapphirus 
denies this, and then Jade says that Sapphirus hasn't realized it yet, and 
calls him a kid, ticking him in the forehead. He says that Sapphirus should 
just hide behind his back if he can't do anything, and says that he doesn't 
have any hopes for Sapphirus. Then Jade says that Sapphirus should think about 
what he has done before trying to tell him off, and leaves.

Sapphirus thinks again that even though he's known Jade for quite some time, 
their relationship can't get any better. Although he understands that Naraku 
has a different lifestyle than Heaven, he still thinks that as angels they are 
special creatures, so they should not have to act like this. But Jade has been 
like this ever since he fell, lying to people and hurting them. Sapphirus thinks 
that if he met Jade in Heaven, he would have a completely different opinion of 
him, because of his smile. 

Then someone comes over to Sapphirus. He knows Sapphirus's name and asks him 
where his partner is. Sapphirus then angrily replies "Why should I know?" but 
then apologizes. The man asks Sapphirus to have a drink with him, as he has 
lots of things to ask him. He says that Sapphirus is strong as an angel killer, 
so he wants to get some advise from him. Sapphirus replies that he isn't, and 
that Jade is stronger. The man again says that Sapphirus is strong. Sapphirus 
refuses his invitation, even though he thinks that this is the first time that 
someone has praised him so much like this, saying that Jade usually visits him 
after work, as it is customary for this to have a bottle of alcohol together 
and argue. He thanks the man for inviting him anyway, and the man leaves, 
inviting him to come next time.

Sapphirus says to himself that this is the first time that he has talked so 
much with a demon, as usually his only long conversations take place with Jade. 
Realizing this, he feels kind of happy, as to him it is proof that he is 
becoming more adapted to Naraku. He has the notion that demons are dirty 
creatures and different from angels, who are holy, so before this he felt 
uneasy communicating with demons. Jade had tried to persuade him to be more 
open, but Sapphirus didn't listen before. Sapphirus now feels that he has 
matured and proven that he can survive in Naraku, even though he is lying to 
the people around him.

~*~

Sapphirus has another dream of his girlfriend back in Heaven. She asks Sapphirus 
if he loves her the most out of all the angels, and Sapphirus says yes. She 
apoligizes because they haven't seen each other for a while. Sapphirus says that 
is it all right, and she then asks him whether anyone has told him that he is 
quite slow. He says, a few have told him that, but then she tells him that she's 
starting to think that he is not an idiot at all. He asks her whether that's a 
compliment, and she says yes, because when she first met him she thought he was 
quite dumb. She then asks herself why she has changed her opinion of him, and 
realizes she may be falling in love with him. 

She asks herself why she was born in Heaven. Sapphirus says that he is thankful 
that she was born there, otherwise he would not have known her. She then says 
that Sapphirus is not an idiot or an evil person, but a very gentle, considerate 
person, and has a lot of good points to his personality. 

The dream then ends with her saying, "But... Sapphirus..."

~*~

Sapphirus is running to work, as he got up late. He crashes into Jade while 
he's running, and Sapphirus tells Jade that it is rare for him to be waking 
up late, as usually it's Jade waking Sapphirus up in the morning. Jade replies 
with "I... um, nothing...", apparently up to something.  

Sapphirus says to Jade that he thinks Jade looks tired, and asks him the reason 
why he wasn't in last night, and tells him that he should go rest, and he'll 
go to work alone. Jade firmly rejects, and they both run to work after that. 

~*~

After work, Sapphirus asks Jade whether he is okay, and Jade says he is fine, 
but Sapphirus claims he looks pale. Jade replies that it doesn't matter, for 
their work is completed. 

Sapphirus thinks that Jade uses quite a lot of energy to cast powerful magic, 
despite his appearance. Jade is one of the best magic-users in the town. Again 
Sapphirus feels that is is not good enough to be Jade's partner. 

Sapphirus tells Jade that he has used too much magic that day, and asks him 
why he didn't call for his help, because he is his partner. Jade hadn't called 
for his help because he knows that Sapphirus doesn't like killing, and was 
trying to protect him from having to do more killing than necessary, but he 
doesn't mention this. Sapphirus asks Jade to take tomorrow off to rest. Jade 
says no, and that after he gets a night of sleep he will feel fine. 

They leave to receive the rewards for their kill. 

~*~

Back in Sapphirus's bedroom, he waits for Jade, like usual. Jade doesn't 
show up, and Sapphirus thinks that it is because Jade doesn't feel well, so 
Sapphirus goes to sleep. 

He has another dream of his girlfriend. She asks him whether he has any other 
important people in his life other than her, like family. Sapphirus doesn't 
have any except for her, he has been alone. But Sapphirus doesn't feel bad 
about that, because he still has clothes to wear, a place called home, and 
food to eat. He doesn't hate the angels above him with all the authority, even 
though they are strict. She replies that the reason he doesn't hate those 
angels is because they regard him as a helpless little goat, and Sapphirus 
doesn't understand what she means. She mentions that if he ever gets separated 
from her, it will be very painful for him. 

~*~

Sapphirus is in the forest, and Jade apparently is nowhere to be seen. He meets 
with the man he had met before, who asks him about the whereabouts of Jade. 
Sapphirus says that Jade overworked himself yesterday, and that is why he is 
absent. He is worried about Jade and wants to visit him. 

The man then says that Jade was using magic that no demon could have done 
(implying that he is /not/ a demon). He then kind of takes back his words and 
says that it's good to have such a talent. Sapphirus, a bit worried over what 
he just said, tells him that Jade is quite strong. The man asks whether he 
is hiding any secrets, like using magic wands or the like, and Sapphirus 
denies this. 

The man asks whether Sapphirus would team up with him, since Jade was absent, 
because his partner died recently, and therefore he is looking for a new 
partner. Until he gets a new partner, he can't do much. Sapphirus then has 
the choice to team up with him for the day or reject the offer. 

If you chose to team up with him, he introduces himself as Rize. They worked 
together and finished the work for the day. Sapphirus thinks that they worked 
well together, and that he fits him better than Jade, because Rize is a 
swordsman and Sapphirus is a mage. Sapphirus thinks it is quite unbelievable 
that he thinks they worked well together, because usually with Jade, Sapphirus 
doesn't do much, typically just the "after work" (cleaning up). 

Rize really wants to team up with Sapphirus, and gives Sapphirus a small bag 
of gold from their rewards for the kill. It's the first time that Sapphirus 
has received money from someone other than Jade. 

Sapphirus then heads off to find Jade. He searches all over town, but still 
can't find him, and is starting to get worried, because it is not like Jade 
to just disappear. Usually they would leave some sort of secret messages to 
inform each other of their whereabouts, because of their identities, and the 
maximum limit of no communication at all is three days. Sapphirus thinks that 
although Jade looks strong, if he were to collapse it would be very serious, 
so he continues to search for him.  

Sapphirus finally finds Jade, and asks him where he had been, and Jade just 
replies that he had something to do. Jade and Sapphirus go to Jade's room after 
that, and Sapphirus asks Jade to apologize, and Jade does so. Sapphirus asks 
Jade to stop disappearing like that, and also questions Jade's rough appearance.

Sapphirus leaves, and mutters to himself, "You don't really care about anyone 
other than yourself." He's upset with Jade because Jade hurt himself and looks 
exhausted, missed work, and Jade's attitude over the whole matters. Sapphirus 
really wants to lie to hurt him, to make him feel defeated, and then wonders 
whether all geniuses are arrogant and have bad attitudes like Jade, but tries 
not to take that view. Sapphirus then wonders why God arranged such a meeting 
with him and Jade, and not with someone else instead.

~*~

Sapphirus is having another dream about his girlfriend in Heaven. She asks 
Sapphirus "Do you love me?" and of course he says yes. Then she gets a bit 
angry, saying Sapphirus didn't listen to her, she wants to know if he loves 
her the most. Sapphirus tells her that God has already guaranteed their 
happiness, and asks her why she still feels insecure, and that he lives to 
protect her and he has no insecurity at all. She says that Sapphirus is "that 
type of person," and that's why he can live happily, but she isn't the same 
as Sapphirus. 

She says that she understands what she expects of Sapphirus, and Sapphirus 
then asks her to tell him, but she says that if she does tell him, he'll 
betray her. She advises Sapphirus to look out for what she wants, then maybe 
happiness would come to them both, but Sapphirus says he is happy right now.  

~*~

The dream ends, and Sapphirus is in his bedroom, thinking. He doesn't 
remember her appearance, but he remembers she is very beautiful, and that 
he didn't deserve such a cute ex-girlfriend. Her words used to always confuse 
him, and it's like a puzzle which needs to be solved. 

Sapphirus would have given her anything she wanted, and he used to love her 
so much, that's why he was never ashamed of saying "I love you" to her all the 
time. But at that time, when he said it, she didn't smile, and she didn't look 
at him, and she released their clasping hands. He then questions to himself why 
she betrayed him, and why he doesn't hate her for betraying him. He draws the 
conclusion that it's because he loves her. 

Sapphirus leaves his room, and is met by Jade. Jade says that Sapphirus has 
grown up since he woke up by himself. Then Sapphirus tells Jade off because he 
slept a bit later than usual. Jade apologizes, and Sapphirus then asks Jade 
whether he slept well, because he doesn't look good. Jade admits he wants a 
bit more sleep, and Sapphirus asks for how much longer, and Jade says "It's a 
secret." Sapphirus assumes that Jade hasn't slept all night, even though Jade 
says he has. Sapphirus says Jade is lying because he looks pale, and Jade 
demands that he is fine to work. Sapphirus wants him to rest and orders Jade 
to take a day off. Jade gets a bit annoyed with Sapphirus for ordering him 
around, and in the end goes to work with Sapphirus, even though Sapphirus is 
quite worried. 

~*~

After work, Jade sounds tired and appears hurt. Sapphirus tells him off for 
not letting him help and rely on him a bit more. Jade gets annoyed and tells 
Sapphirus to shut up, and says that the only thing Sapphirus should do is 
listen to him, and that he shouldn't think much of anything else, and tells 
him not to worry. 

Sapphirus argues back and questions why Jade won't rely on him more. Jade says 
that Sapphirus is in no position to worry about him, for Sapphirus hasn't sorted 
out his own "problems" yet. Sapphirus asks what are his "problems." Jade then 
says that Sapphirus has been trying too hard to cope in Naraku. Sapphirus says 
he's not finding it hard to cope, he's matured a lot and has socialized with 
magicians a lot, and has even worked with one of them, so Sapphirus should be 
able to help Jade, in his opinion. Jade hits Sapphirus, and tells him off for 
being stupid, and that Sapphirus doesn't understand what he is up to. 

Jade asks Sapphirus whether he's been sleeping well recently, since he hasn't 
visited Sapphirus to have a drink with him in the evening for quite a while. 
Sapphirus says yes, and tells Jade to get some rest. Then Rize comes up to them, 
and offers to carry Jade back to his room. Jade rejects firmly. Sapphirus asks 
Jade why, for he believes that Rize is nice and friendly. Sapphirus then starts 
chatting with Rize. Jade says if Rize touches him, he will kill him. Rize then 
leaves and says that if Jade ever needs help, he can come to him. 

Sapphirus asks Jade why he minds Rize so much, because he usually doesn't care 
about anything. Jade says that he doesn't, if he did mind, he would have killed 
him. Jade then asks Sapphirus whether he was Sapphirus's partner before, and 
Sapphirus says yes. Jade says he is unforgivable. Sapphirus asks what's so bad 
about Rize that Jade doesn't like. Jade says that Sapphirus is an idiot, and 
Sapphirus doesn't understand what he means. Jade asks what Sapphirus has learnt 
so far in Naraku, and Sapphirus replies that he is trying his best. Jade calls 
him an idiot again, and they start to argue, as Sapphirus wants Jade to rely and 
trust him more. He knows that he can never be as good as Jade, but he's trying 
his best, and he would never betray Jade. Jade says he has already betrayed him, 
otherwise he wouldn't be in this state, and Sapphirus gets confused again. He asks 
what he has done wrong, and Jade says he has done nothing wrong. Sapphirus asks 
why Jade doesn't trust him then, but Jade just leaves. 

~*~

Sapphirus dreams again. His girlfriend asks him whether he loves her, which 
he of course says yes, and then she asks him whether he will do anything for 
her, and he again says yes. She asks whether he feels happy with her and if 
he doesn't want to lose her. Sapphirus again answers yes, and she says she 
has a request.

She says she wants him to fall because he is a burden to her, and that his 
existance causes her to be unhappy. She wants him to disappear but doesn't 
want him to die, she wants him to leave his name behind. She wants to be happy, 
so she begs Sapphirus. 

She starts to leave and Sapphirus shouts "Wait!" She answers back, asking him 
what he wants, and that he doesn't love her the most, so he shouldn't always 
go to her, who only has the second place in his heart. She shouts to Sapphirus 
that if he hates her, then he should tell her.

~*~

Sapphirus wakes up, still during the night, and is glad that it was only a 
dream. He remembered that after that it was darkness. He then questions why 
he didn't go mad but others did when they arrived in Naraku. He then concludes 
that it was because he was thinking of her. 

He then thinks about how it has been peaceful lately. Usually he would sleep 
soundly till morning, and then he could "escape" from the dream world peacefully. 
Before, when he shared a room with Jade, he used to wake up at night. Jade should 
have noticed, but never said anything about it. He questions to himself why Jade 
doesn't trust him more, since he has made it clear to him that he likes him and 
that he wants his trust. He questions why he couldn't convey his feelings to Jade 
properly, and why Jade doesn't tell him how to convey his feelings. Sapphirus 
has tried his best, but if he doesn't know what the other person wants from 
him, he can't do anything. He wants to be what others expect of him, and he 
tries his hardest, but in the end he is always wrong. 

Rize then knocks on the door suddenly. Rize asks Sapphirus whether he has some 
time and invites Sapphirus to have a drink with him. Sapphirus starts to get 
suspicious, because it is weird for Rize to come that late at night. Sapphirus 
remembers Jade saying that he should be alert at all times, so Sapphirus doesn't 
let Rize in. Sapphirus then says to Rize that he won't get any advantages from 
getting close to him and that if he wants help, he should call for Jade. 

Rize answers, saying that there's a misunderstanding. He says he wants to tell 
Sapphirus about Jade. Sapphirus wants to know, as he knows slightly that Jade 
has been doing something behind his back. When Jade decides that he is not 
telling, he will never tell, and Sapphirus remembers Jade calling him an idiot 
and that he should just listen to him and not interfere with his affairs. Even 
though Jade is hurt and in pain, he rejects his help, and decides everything. 
Sapphirus thinks about it, and then lets Rize in.

Rize notices an odor in Sapphirus's room, and thinks it is a "good" odor. Rize 
tells Sapphirus that Jade is currently in the female staff officer's room. 
Sapphirus looks kind of shocked. Rize then says that Sapphirus and Jade are not 
childhood friends as they claim, and Sapphirus says that they are. Rize also 
says that Sapphirus is not a magician, and Sapphirus looks shocked. Sapphirus 
then asks for his purposes, and Rize says he hasn't got any, but that he notices 
Sapphirus keeps looking through Jade, and that Sapphirus really hates Jade 
because they argue and such. Sapphirus thinks to himself that he has no choice, 
as Jade is his only partner. 

Rize continues to question Sapphirus, asking whether he feels that he is 
important to Jade. Then he asks Sapphirus whether he hates being his partner. 
Sapphirus says he was happy with him. Rize says that Sapphirus should be 
his partner instead. Rize doesn't mind who he is, or where he is from, for 
he doesn't know where he is from as well, and that he will keep the secret 
for Sapphirus. Rize continues to try to persuade Sapphirus to join him, and 
asks Sapphirus to assess his importance to Jade, and teaches Sapphirus a 
method for him to assess this. Sapphirus couldn't resist the temptation of 
knowing what Jade thinks of him, because he was hurt by Jade's coldness 
towards him, so he wants to resist him, even for a tiny bit. Rize then leaves.

~*~

The next morning, Sapphirus knocks on Jade's door, and there is no reply, 
so he goes in, and notices Jade is still sleeping. Sapphirus starts to talk 
to Jade and says that it's unusual for him to still be asleep at that hour. 

Sapphirus thinks again, about the past, when there was a time when Sapphirus 
tried to resist Jade. Sapphirus was in despair, he detested doing such dirty 
work everyday, so he was thinking of travelling to a far away land. At that 
time Sapphirus thought he should just kill himself by cutting his own throat, 
carrying his memories from Heaven. He wanted to escape, but he knew he wouldn't 
be forgiven if he committed suicide. He told Jade that he wanted to die, and 
Jade got very angry, not because he wanted to die, but because he was being 
irresponsible. And now Sapphirus stays with Jade, so they can keep their 
secret together. [Possibly ties in to the "Soul Flower" short story.]

Jade then wakes up. Sapphirus asks Jade when he first fell in love. Jade asks 
Sapphirus why he wants to know all of a sudden, and Sapphirus replies that he 
is inexperianced, so that's why he is asking Jade. Jade says that he has never 
been in love. Jade asks Sapphirus to leave, so he can sleep for a bit longer, 
and then Sapphirus asks Jade how he could dosuch a thing last night, since he 
didn't love the female staff officer. 

Jade calls Sapphirus an idiot, and Sapphirus says that he is concerned about 
him because they are partners. Then there is a long silence, and Jade says the 
word "partner" again. Sapphirus then starts to get angry with Jade, because 
he doesn't explain what is going on, and he isn't that clever to understand 
everything. He wants Jade to tell him what to do to satisfy him. 

Jade then asks who Sapphirus was prompted by to say such things. Jade says to 
Sapphirus that he doesn't need to worry about anything, and that he is an idiot 
for getting so hyped up just because someone encouraged him to do so. Sapphirus 
still wants him to explain, and Jade refuses to tell him, and says maybe 
Sapphirus should break his partnership with him. Jade believes that there are 
somethings which don't need to be said, but can be expressed in other ways, and 
he tells Sapphirus that he has matured because Sapphirus developed such a 
close relationship with a magician, and therefore he should live fine in 
Naraku, although he is living in lies. Before Sapphirus looked like he could 
die so easily, he was physically and mentally weak, but now Jade says that he 
shouldn't worry in the first place considering how now Sapphirus has the energy 
to tell him off, and that maybe Sapphirus is more suited for Naraku than Heaven.

Sapphirus thinks to himself again. He wouldn't mind seeing his girlfriend 
in Heaven again, but even if he returned to Heaven, things would never return 
to before, and he would never be able to talk to her peacefully again. He 
wants to go back because he hates Naraku, he hates the blood, war, and lies. 

Jade says it doesn't matter if Sapphirus leaves, he is tired of looking at 
Sapphirus and he says that Sapphirus should be a cook in the first place, 
although it is a plain job, and then he tells Sapphirus goodbye. 

Sapphirus then asks Jade if this is it, and whether he has no value to Jade 
at all, and Jade says no, and that to Sapphirus, death is the ultimate 
happiness, and that he has interfered with Sapphirus. Sapphirus says that 
is not it, and thinks to himself that it's because of Jade that he is still 
here, and it's his wish to live. 

Sapphirus thinks again that it is normal for two individuals to meet at a 
point in their lives and part.  

~*~ 

Sapphirus has a dream of his first killing with Jade. 

Sapphirus asks him how Jade could get used to killing his own kind, and 
Jade answered that they were like birds, and by holding that thought it made 
it easier for him to kill. Jade said that birds and angels are the same, 
angels are nothing more special, the same with magicians and angels, and 
Sapphirus didn't understand, because he held the belief that they were 
specially created creatures, and asks Jade whether he felt proud because he 
was special. 

Jade says that even if he did have such a belief, the enemy didn't hold that 
belief. They were done for the day and Sapphirus apologized to Jade, and 
Jade asks Sapphirus what he would do if he ever saw that female angel again. 
Jade told him that she deserved to die, and if God exists, she deserved to be 
punished. But Sapphirus answers that he loved her, so he wouldn't do anything 
to her. Jade then says that he had never met an angel like Sapphirus, and 
that Sapphirus is the ideal type of angel wanted in Heaven. Sapphirus 
couldn't understand, and apologized. Jade then wonders why he had to be with 
Sapphirus and not someone else instead. 

~*~

Rize knocks on the door and enters Sapphirus's room. Rize has brought 
Sapphirus dinner, and Sapphirus remembers how Jade used to go into his 
room with a bottle of whisky and cheese in the evenings, and they would 
eat and talk about nothing. Sapphirus thought that it would continue...

Rize starts talking to Sapphirus, and tells him that something went wrong in 
the north of Naraku, and some important royalty is sorting the problem out. 
Rize wants to go and see, and Sapphirus sounds interested. Rize tells Sapphirus 
not to tell anyone about it, otherwise everyone would rush to the north and 
they wouldn't gain much from it. Sapphirus smiles, and Rize tells him to forget 
about Jade and stop getting depressed. Sapphirus tells himself internally to 
forget about Heaven and Jade, because Jade is not holding his hand anymore, 
and he should try his best in Naraku, and work with the magicians in Naraku.

So Rize and Sapphirus decide to go to the north, and then Rize asks Sapphirus 
about his hair, and if it is annoying for always blocking part of his view. 
Sapphirus says he is used to it, and he doesn't mind it being there. Rize wants 
to have a look, but Sapphirus doesn't want him to. Rize then reaches and 
touches his hair, and Sapphirus feels the roughness of his skin, and can smell 
his odor, and is reminded that he is an angel and that Rize is a magician. 
Becoming sensitive, Sapphirus then kills Rize. 

~*~

Sapphirus dreams of his first time killing again, how he couldn't get up 
after the kill, and Jade had urged him to get up and go. Jade had made it 
clear that he wouldn't help him, and had said that they would head for a 
village filled with magicians. Sapphirus didn't want to go, but Jade said 
that people would treat them like magicians. Sapphirus demanded that Jade 
shouldn't mix with them, so Jade then proposed that they go in and kill 
everyone in God's name. After that, they would be killed, so Sapphirus 
shouldn't mind his "wings" and identity anymore. But Sapphirus hated this 
idea even more, and demanded some time for him to settle down.

~*~

Back in Sapphirus's room, he sits on his bed, the room covered in magician's 
blood. Sapphirus dislikes the smell of Rize's blood mixing with his own blood, 
the smell of rubbish that doesn't believe in God, filled with sins like a wild 
creature. Sapphirus then asks himself if he is the same as Rize, and convinces 
himself that he is not, he is of a higher existance.

Jade then knocks on the door, saying that he forgot to tell Sapphirus something
important. 

He advises Sapphirus to not go to the north no matter what, because they were 
capturing angels in the north who haven't gone mad so they could collect info 
on Heaven. Jade then says goodbye to Sapphirus. Sapphirus answers back, asking 
Jade to save him. 

Sapphirus starts talking to himself, saying he feels horrible, asking why 
everyone is so evil. He then thinks again, asking himself, why does trust 
always brings betrayal in the end, although he has worked so hard. He doesn't 
understand. He wants others to know his feelings.... and accept him and praise 
him. He tries to be the person that everyone wants him to be, especially for 
Jade. But Jade doesn't feel that way, and Sapphirus doesn't understand. He asks 
for God, and wants to know why He's not here for him.

~*~

Jade talks to himself, and says that Sapphirus is always just thinking and 
planning, but not doing... Planning to understand, planning to like... And that's 
peaceful, but if one only relies on planning, then they can't continue living. 

He calls Sapphirus a useless person, and in his muttering, says that they 
have to start over again from the beginning, because they had to escape from 
the bounty hunter camp since Sapphirus killed Rize. 

Jade hits Sapphirus and he wakes up. Sapphirus asks why he is here, and Jade 
tells him that his room can never be cleaned, so he ran away with Sapphirus. 
Jade tells Sapphirus to go to sleep and orders him to not ask him why he saved Sapphirus. 

~*~

Sapphirus dreams again about his first meeting with his girlfriend. They were 
introduced as each other's "mating partner" and she was relieved it was Sapphirus
and not some fat old man. Sapphirus tells her his name.

He thinks again; he doesn't understand his or her actions, his or her wishes, 
or his or her feelings, and this is not their fault, but his own fault.

~*~

It is now in the present, after Jade and Sapphirus have stolen the gem from 
the former King of Naraku, using it to set fire to parts of Naraku. Sapphirus 
looks at the burning flames destroying Naraku and asks Jade whether it's fun to 
burn Naraku.

Sapphirus thinks to himself again that there's only one path, and that's decided 
by God. But is that really so? Sapphirus questions... He has been aiming to return 
to that sky. He then remembers Alex saying that everyone hates being alone. But 
he is not alone anymore, but even so, he has worked so hard to get to this stage. 
He shouldn't return... he has no place left to go... but to that sky.

Sapphirus then start chatting to Jade, telling him that he has the exact quality 
of being an angel. Jade asks why, and Sapphirus says that because he treats 
everyone equally, which is different from him. Jade agrees, then asks Sapphirus 
when was his first love? Sapphirus says it's a secret... and says that if his 
love is Jade, how would he feel. Jade says that he would be sick, but that he 
would pay anything to return to the old days in Heaven. 

Sapphirus then thinks to himself that the reason he wants to return is to 
have a fresh start. It's also his true home, a place he longs for. But now, 
the sky to him is dark red in color, and he assumes that it's because his eyes 
are probably contaminated and it's his fault for not seeing the its beauty. 

Sapphirus says to Jade that he believes in their promise, that he won't tell 
anyone what has happened. Jade has forgotten their promise, and Sapphirus kind 
of tells him off for having forgotten. 

Then they head off, and Sapphirus thinks that at that moment, they are closer 
than ever before. Therefore he feels happy, because he's not alone anymore. 
But... his chest hurts. But Sapphirus is determined to return to that sky, 
however dirty it is... 

~*The End*~