Envy

By ShiniNeko

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Title: Envy
Author: ShiniNeko
Type: Ficlet
Rating: R
Pairings: Sora/Sunao, Yoru/Ran
Spoilers: Mentionings of the above pairings from the TV series
Summary: Matsuri's envious of Sora/Yoru and Sunao/Ran's relationship.

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They're in their own little world again, no matter how much I try to break the fragile barrier between it and the real world, the one I live in. Classes just ended for the day and we're all lounging in the courtyard, a blanket spread out beneath us. We were supposed to relax, talk out the new job slips I'm currently leafing through, then work through our homework so we could have the evening off. My eyes slid away from the babysitting job for the next week to look at my companions again.

Sunao, while he has his math book open in front of him, isn't even looking at it. He's playing with a small braid in his hair. The source of the braid is sitting just off to his side, since Sunao is on his stomach. He's sitting there, making small braids out of his long hair. I'm so close to yelling at them both, but I don't. It would be strange of me, sweet, gentle Matsuri, to get upset with them for being happy. We found out not too long ago that Yoru and Ran weren't as gone as we'd have thought. Well... I found out. Sora and Sunao never told me. I walked in on them.

They had been in Sora's bed, with Ran riding Yoru, calling out his name. And I knew it was Ran, even though I'd never met him personally, because the voice had been too high for it to be Sunao, too... submissive. My face heated again at the memory. I had stood there, staring at the two of them, even as they climaxed. I couldn't even move when Ran had turned to look at me with Yoru's hands still clamped on his hips, slowly lifting a finger with his seed on it to lick it off. His voice had been softer still even then, asking me if I wanted something and knowing I did, though I hadn't dared to take it. I remember stuttering some kind of reply and leaving quickly, and nothing has been said about it since.

It's not that it's disturbing, or even that I find it strange. The problem is, I wanted to be with them. Whether it was Yoru and Ran or Sora and Sunao. I just wanted... but no. I won't. I won't even take that tangent of thought. They're happy together and I won't bother that. So, with another look to them both, I stand up.

"Matsuri-chan?" Sunao's voice drifts over to me and I look down, well aware I still have a flush on my cheeks. ...And I can't help my answer.

"I'm going to take care of the jobs myself... since you two are too involved in each other to care." I left that slight, ominous sounding declaration hanging over them both as I turned and walked off. It wasn't that I didn't want to be with them. On the contrary, I wanted to be with them too much. And so it went, I wasn't going to give myself cause to hurt them anymore than I had just with that statement.

I didn't hate them at all. I merely envied them.

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